I drank again. It was tuesday after lunch with a friend and still had some liquor left over. but I came home and dumped it. I want to be sober. This last time, i didn't feel the same rush drinking. I got flushed and that sick filling of drinking, the anxiety and shakes. Drinking is just killing me and I need to stay away. I've stayed away from the pot, which i only started to stop the drinking, thinking it was better. but any substance is not good for me. I have to be clear headed right now. I'm keeping busy with going to meetings, and it felt good to be busy today and focused. now only if this feeling can stay. group really helped me get some perspective this time. One day at a time and today I didnt drink. tomorrow is my goal to stay sober and honest.
Ramblings of a pot head, alcoholic on her journey through salivation and the recent realization of being diagnosed bipolar, starting therapy and bring up the history of physical and sexual abuse, sexual activity, identity crisis, divorce, being a single mom, being in a relationship with a manic depressive, marriage and anything else my life has to offer or that i've stuffed deep down to be recorded in this blob web log diary journal, whatever you want to call it...