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Not a pothead anymore

Now I can't figure out how to change my discription, but oh well. I need to write.
I'm 17 days sober now. I got home from the mental hospital last night and was not doing well. I went to an AA meeting and remembered why I didn't like that place. I will try a different one tomorrow. I felt so agitated and irritated, I jumped on my husband so when I got home, I took half a xanax and a darvocet for my back, which was hurting like crazy.

Life also happens. My daughter called me and I listened, but its hard being a parent. then I got my disability check, well it wasn't what I expected and now have to go back on unemployment, but hopefully no hiccups will happen cause we really need the money. I just don't want to deal with this stuff. Its different inside, you have no worries and yes you focus on you. so now I can only reaffirm what I learned, that its one day at a time. I'll go to outpatient tomorrow and will talk to my doctor about the feelings, I'm sure he'll adjust my meds again. ugh. why can't i just feel good?

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