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Lunch awaiting

Can't write too much, the microwave justed beeped and my lunch is awaiting.

I ventured out to find some bipolar blogs. I need to find out how others become successful while being bipolar. My biggest criticisms at work have to deal with things I cannot control, I try and it works most of the time, but its tiring. Its very tiring to watch everything I'm doing and reassess it but all the while I'm multitasking.

did I mentioned that this is unedited? I don't prethink what i'm going to write or when i write, just that I'm writing, unedited and unsensored. At least try. I'm high right now. People might not understand the need for marijuana.

I first started smoking marijuana to help curb my alcohol cravings. Alcohol was killing me, literally. So I switched to POT which isn't killing me as fast as Alcohol (theres potential lung cancer). Now, it is my vice. I know I need to find something else, and I'm hoping its going to come soon.

TIme to eat. hungry.

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