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no motivation; only for battle

I haven't wanted to really write. Nothing really going on. I guess I'm in the down mode cause I'm not manic. I can feel the difference. I'm snappy and irritated. Right now I'm just chill though. Semi High, about a 5. Drinking coffee to get me going to do some errands today. Did the paperwork part, now have to do a couple different stops to file paperwork, get notorized, send it in the mail. Pick up a fax....

I've been addicted to battleship. Infact, i'm going there now. My hands are sore from holding the mouse and my bony hands against my laptop.

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