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Still wacky mood swings. Dealing with the best I can but I think since I'm aware i DON'T LET IT RUN AWAY. oops caps. well, I think I'm going to do a solo therapy, I just want to do me. So I will go it alone and see what she says. I've been less high lately, i think my tolerance level is high right now. Got to stop smoking! I think the snowboarding and working/volunteering will help big time.

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